Update So Far

Finally. 

A Saturday morning that doesn't have me running around town. I'm just going to lie in bed till past 12 and let my aching legs rest. 

The reason why my legs are aching is because I did a roadshow yesterday from 2 till 6 in the afternoon. It was really fun, although it got tiring towards the end. The fun part was getting to meet all sorts of different people. 

In all other areas of my life, things seem to be alright. But I must confess that spiritually, I am struggling. I find that I have very little faith in God. When I pray, I tend to doubt nowadays. It's not good, I know... And I feel guilty for doubting... 

I guess the reason why I doubt these days is because I have not been fully obedient to the Lord. Weird huh? I guess one simply cannot trust if one does not obey. I've come to see that the two come hand-in-hand. Anyway, it's affecting me wanting to pray and read the Bible these days...



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I'll be turning 25 this year. 

How time flies... I remember being 15 and thinking that my 25 year old friend was really old. It's my turn now!

Hmm... 

I dyed my hair back to a darker brown color last week. 

And that's about all that's new with me :)

Locked By Fear

Last Friday, I finally went for an urban again, after a three-month long hiatus. 

It was pretty fun. We skated from Bishan to Khatib along Lentor Avenue. 

Jerry surprised me by showing up halfway on his motorbike just to say hi. That was really sweet of him!

Saturday afternoon, we attended Bozhi and Theng Hoon's wedding held at the Church of God along Bedok Road. 

I was so touched by the look on Bozhi's face as he watched his bride walk in through the doors. Even though this is their third ceremony (they already had one in China and one in Malaysia), he still had that look of utter... Hmmm.... how should I describe the look on his face?

I guess this verse in Psalm 45:11 comes to mind: "The king is enthralled with your beauty; honor him, for he is your lord"

Then after the wedding ceremony was over, we dropped by East Coast Park for an impromptu walk by the beach. Just couldn't resist the beautiful sunny sky!

Here's a photo of us at the place where we first met and have spent so much time skating alongside each other.




I guess, even as time goes by, I am still feeling locked by fear. Fear of the future in so many ways. This fear is crippling me from working hard and from being the woman of faith I know God wants me to be. I spent all day in bed yesterday just thinking about all the possible ways I could fail in this upcoming week and it made me not even want to move.

Dear God, I know all these feelings of defeat are just lies. Please help me and save me from these lies. Help me to walk forward in faith and not in fear. I need your help, you are the only one who can keep me from harm! In Jesus' Name, Amen.