Goodbye 2013, Hello 2014

Ever since I moved back to Singapore, I feel like my walk with God has not gone from strength to strength. I've just been sort of.... hanging in there. Can I just say that the plateau feels kind of stinky?

Yet I know that mountaintop experiences do not come without the pain of having struggled through dark valleys and climbing sharp rocky trails. 

As 2013 comes to a swift end, I can't help but feel a pang of regret for not having spent more time in the past year being in God's Word and serving those around me. Sure, it's been a fun year. LOTS of travelling, hanging out with friends and just enjoying life. But to whose benefit? 

I don't want to be just an average "hanging in there" kind of Christian. 

This year, I'll be turning 25. It's an age I've been looking forward to ever since I was 15. Back then, I had projected myself to be a fashionable young career woman at 25. One who does nothing but party, travel and do cool stuff. Today, I look back on that projection with such... despair... I just.... Gotta shake my head and laugh!!! 

I don't want to be all that this year.  

All I want is to keep my gaze on the things that are eternal, not the things that are temporary and of this world. Why should I live my life based on those things? 

Last year, I talked a lot about caring for others. Yet how many times have I personally reached out for that and prayed for their salvation? This year, I've GOT to see that the harvest around me is ripe! It's time to take up the armor of God and start praying!

Last year, I did a lot of teaching and judging others while I gradually lost track of my own ills. As I enter the new year, I shall leave my burden of accumulated guilt at Jesus' feet. I am reminded that the King of Kings humbled himself to even death on the cross. Who am I that I should demand honor above my Master?

There is so much I have yet to learn Lord, and so much that is yet to be done in my heart. I dedicate myself to You anew and ask that You will take me deeper in love with You. In Jesus' name I pray all this, Amen!!!