For the past year, I can't say I've been fully independent because my parents were always there for me when I needed their help; especially financially. However today, my mom told me that this would no longer be the case.
When she said that, I instantly realised that I really was twenty years old now.
Twenty years of learning how to walk, talk, eat, read, write, stand...... And what do I have to show for it?
Here is my chance, the meaningful shove out the front door, a new beginning and an opportunity to finally find my place in this world.
And honestly, I'm scared to bits.
As I said to V earlier today, I am finally completely responsible for myself. And not just for myself, but soon I'll have to look after my parents as well. But how am I supposed to do that?
I don't see myself having any sort of career right now without hating myself or going broke with debts.
And when school starts again, I may live in my car to save money. This will mean giving up my kitty...
No wonder I come across as a crazy person nowadays...
When she said that, I instantly realised that I really was twenty years old now.
Twenty years of learning how to walk, talk, eat, read, write, stand...... And what do I have to show for it?
Here is my chance, the meaningful shove out the front door, a new beginning and an opportunity to finally find my place in this world.
And honestly, I'm scared to bits.
As I said to V earlier today, I am finally completely responsible for myself. And not just for myself, but soon I'll have to look after my parents as well. But how am I supposed to do that?
I don't see myself having any sort of career right now without hating myself or going broke with debts.
And when school starts again, I may live in my car to save money. This will mean giving up my kitty...
No wonder I come across as a crazy person nowadays...
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